Let's pretend that you hold a magic mirror that tells you the truth of someone else's heart. What are you hoping to see? There's some glaring fault you were blind to, but can now change? He's being lied to by someone, and the truth will set him free to loving you again? What we want is some control over this heartbreak, and understanding why deceives us into thinking we can have that control. If I know why his feelings have changed, then I can change them back. But, of course, that is a lie. I know you don't want to hear that, or believe it. But read it again. Read it everyday. You can't change his mind. You can't be perfect.
Let's say that God tells you exactly why this is happening. Feel any better? Because God would tell you about the growth you're going through and show you a future beyond what you can imagine. What you really want is to argue with Him. Explain how his reasons aren't good enough. You don't want that future. You want the one that got away.
So the why you need to know is bogus. But, it's still there. And I have a few answers to that. When you're ready to listen. When the reason you want to know isn't so you can change everything.
In the meantime, you need some control over something. And that something is you and the mind baffling state you keep living. Confront that why with an answer. When I need to know, God will tell me. Repeat that every time you start to ask why. Repeat it until you believe it.
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